I have done it, I have finally kept my commitment to myself and gotten up and to the gym for 6:00am and worked out. Four of the guys came with me this morning, and it felt great. Of course I got dizzy and felt lightheaded, somehow I have neglected aerobic activity for too long. However with my insulin resistance and my disposition to diabetes, I need exercise more now then ever. I promised my brother last night that I would do it, and when it was time to wake up after only four hours sleep, I made no excuses that would allow me to roll over and fall back asleep, up I got.

Khalila isn't in school for January, it's kinda of the collegiate school. She could have gone since Josh is taking a class but I wanted to spend some time with her, now that my job has ended. Yesterday while restocking the house while at Costco, I had to use the lavatory. She wanted to stay in the carriage and I told her that she needed to come with Mama so she could be safe. Her response in teenage fashion was "I'm not going to get lost, blah, blah, blah."

She cracks me up daily and i defend her to all the brothers who believe she should be spanked, as it worked for them. I defend my stance and am dedicated to taking the time and patience to do it the long way with explanation. I personally was raised around abuse, so I know I am super sensitive to it, but violence will not make her feel good about herself or teach her healthy ways of communicating. She has done nothing too offensive, side from telling me she was going to smack me in the face at the Chinese restaurant the other day. The guys were all talking about smacking, and she was frustrated. So I understand why she expressed herself. She didn't hit me, she talked about it. So we talked about how she was feeling and that threatening violence wasn't loving or safe.

We are off, still running and running, will breathe soon and be at peace. This is the forth time we have moved in 8 months, and does my back feel it. The last two moves have been double house moves. This house is considered to have 27 rooms, I'd say we don't use 5 of them that are in the attic where the scholars lived in the 70's. Still enough for me to be overwhelmed and exhausted. Whie being so grateful to be back home and blessed with all those I love.